(Insert your color here) Lives Matter

I personally don't give a shit about color you put a color in front of lives it's just adding a separation that the media and our government want. They don't want us getting along and worrying about each other and taking care of each no matter of what color we are. Black lives do matter they are just as important and more so because yes there is a stigmata associated to being black but every race has a stigmata to it. People need to wake up and not jump to conclusions I mean for God's sake people stop letting the media and government do try to like everyone do I jump at the racial stigmata conclusion yes sometimes I do and I am trying to better myself by not doing it. Everyone race deserves our respect. So will I jump on the Black lives, All lives, Blue lives, Brown lives, White lives matters band wagon? Hell no I won't! I will jump on something like humankind matters because is that truly what we all want is for humanity as a whole to succeed and live together in peace and support of each other without bringing in race, religion, or social standing. If we are to succeed in doing that we need to let the media and our government know we are on to their Bullshit. Sorry if this offended anyone it's just how I feel.

Advice please...

I just want to get a few things off my chest concerning the past few days. Regarding what is going on health wise with me both physically and mentally.

Saturday August 13 2016 I started my 2 week pre-op gastric sleeve surgery diet this diet consists of drinking 5 to 6 8 oz protein drinks and lots of water to stay hydrated. I may also have unsweetened tea,coffee and crystal light mix drinks, as long as they are sugar free. Up until this time I was preparing myself for this huge eating change and diet change. I stopped soda consumption and I was attempting and actually succeeding in cutting down on what I was eating. Now just so there is NO Doubt in anyone's mind and there will be no one saying this was done because I am to lazy to exercise, I will say this one LAST TIME...I have and injured ankle that surgery didn't fix, now is that because of my weight at the time of that surgery, I honestly don't know. I did however from the original work injury suffer from meniscus tears in my knee. I have now degenerative discs in my back according to x-rays so walking let alone exercising right now is out of the question. Right now I am either using a cane or sit down type of walker to get around until I see a back doctor in September.

Ok back to where I was, sorry I get scattered brained sometimes. Where was I, oh I remember...I was really 100% in all the way for this life style change. I even had goals of once I lose enough weight I would visit some amusement parks and ride roller coasters again even go to the beach with family. I wouldn't be worried about being an embarrassment to my wife and step-kids when we went places. I wouldn't have the thoughts that people were looking at the fat guy that's out in public embarrassing his family like that.

Now ok here is the stuff that has gone on. Before the liquid diet for the past few months I have been battling severe spells of dizziness and spells where I thought I was on the verge of passing out. Sometimes its mild and other times its so intense I have to sit back down. Two months ago this happened when mom had her stroke I almost passed out in the ER if it wasn't for the nurses. My white blood cell count was 15,000, that is kind of high. (not explaining if you're curious look it up) My blood pressure at the time was 60/40 also not good. They stabilized me then let me go with the warning that if it happens again seriously come back. I was still suffering from dizzy spells went to my primary care DR. and since I have IEHP I have to wait for the go ahead to see specialists and such.

Fast forward to Saturday August 13, 2016 I start my diet and for good measure I quit smoking (by the way as of this writing I have gone 11 days without smoking completely cold turkey). Following my diet like the bariatric place wants me to keeping hydrated drinking my shakes keeping an pretty upbeat attitude while doing so considering my mental problems with depression and anxiety. The only problem is the spells are happening more frequently. Now Saturday August 20th mom and myself go to Bass Pro Shops well because that is an outdoors persons Disneyland, even if I am not able to do a lot right now, it's the whole soon I will be a thinner healthier person might as well look for thing to look forward into doing. Now again still following diet guidelines I am staying hydrated like I am supposed to but I keep getting dizzy spells and feeling like I am going to faint. We decide to have lunch yes I broke my diet but stayed within my range of calorie count and protein. It didn't help we get home I take my blood pressure and its 80/40. I then go to Redlands Community Hospital where my blood pressure slowly continues to drop.

They run a ton of tests and take what I think is about 20 vials of blood. After about 8 or more hours I honestly don't remember, one of the doctors come in and let me know that my blood pressure is stable again but they are going to admit me for observation. During all of this up until Monday when i was released my white blood cell count was 19,000 and my kidney function was wonky. Monday I get released with advice that I see my primary doctor, a neurologist, and a hematologist. Now this is what I was sent home with explaining what they found.

Reason for Visit: HYPOTENSION,ARF ON CKD, LEUKOCYTOSIS,

DISCHARGE DIAGNOSIS: ACUTE RENAL FAILURE

If you don't know look them up

Now because of all of this I have had to postpone the surgery again. Part of me is telling me that maybe this is a sign from a higher source telling me to make sure these other health problems get dealt with first before I continue on with my gastric bypass surgery. I am at a loss in all honesty this is workers comp that is paying for it but all these other problems are not associated with my work injury so I will have to go through IEHP to get all the different tests done that Redlands suggested which isn't a problem. So the question I have is, should I let my lawyer to start settlement proceedings and then look into IEHP maybe getting me the surgery after I get these other more pressing matters looked at. I know IEHP will cover the bariatric sleeve surgery.

Well that is about it for me thank you for taking the time and reading this post.

Please Please leave a comment or message me on facebook if you have any suggestions or helpful words that could help.

Thank you all again.

Just some stuff all of us should think about. With all these posts about halftime shows, refugees, presidential candidates, our government, and ourselves as a whole. We all should be lifting each other up instead of having to choose sides. We need to stop this segregation that is starting to take hold again. Everyone's life matters not just one but everyone's. Not just one race but all races of people matter. Our whole existence on this beautiful planet matters. We need to stop giving the media outlets the fuel to burn all of these fires of hate. We need to ban together hand in either physically or through our power of social media band together Blacks,Whites,Mexicans,Native Americans,Chinese,Japanese, the list goes on and on.

There shouldn't be a list we all share one thing that is true we all our AMERICANS!
We need to show our government that we the people ie all of us regardless of race and creed can come together to change the world then the government and media wouldn't have the fuel (HATE) and we as a people as a whole entity can start living better lives. It's little things we can do. Give a homeless person some change or a hamburger.my mom does. Help an elderly person across the street. It's the little things we can do. Thank a cop for everything they do on a daily basis instead of feeding into this whole anti cop thing. Tell anyone you meet that has served or is serving in our military how much their service means to you or just thank them. Stop glorifying people that honestly in a whole don't deserve it. Instead of the Kardashians always trending on Twitter. Let's get me more deserving people trending, people that are furthering science, education, medicine, stopping hunger, these people should be trending not all these entertainment folk. I am just tired I guess. I am a big old guy who has nothing better to do right now due to my injury situation who spends way to much time on Facebook reading all these different posts from everyone. Spends to much time seeing Twitter trends come and go. Spends to much time watching media news outlets and politicians spew more hate than help. I see my close friends post pictures of their gorgeous children and I think to myself what kind of future are we leaving these beautiful, intelligent, charismatic, happy children. I don't know and that keeps me awake. I hope it's something we can be proud of.  Ok my rant is over I hope you all don't take offence I highly doubt any of you will read it. I will also post this on my blog. I would really truly appreciate it if you all could share the blog or this post. For some reason I am proud of this rant. Thank you all be good to each other.